Let me speak of love. I know that I’ve mentioned before that I’m perpetually lonely, although the degree of which varies from day to day. Some-days I think that I’d be happy with anyone, other days I revert to my usual pickiness. Most of the guys I know would be happy with the next decent thing to come along. Myself? I’m picky, I have a system that I think I established in middle school. It’s simple in it’s design, but complex in it’s application. I’ll know any given number of females at any given time, and most of them are nothing more than acquaintances, since I don’t seem to make, have, or keep female friends, I don’t know why.
I think this part needs some clarification, there are many parts of someone that I screen, notice when I say screen, this is done subconsciously for the most part, only when I think of it is it an actual process of screening. But anyway, body is the most important aspect to most guys, for me it’s important too, but not that important. I’d rather have someone with a great personality that is very compatible with mine, than a super model that I hate to be around. It’s what inside that counts, but I don’t think I’d like to wake up every morning looking at something I don’t like to look at. I think that a dynamic personality would be important, one that changes often, but it’s controllable, I don’t know if I’d be ready to handle someone who has severe mood swings all the time, like if they’re bipolar. I don’t know if refusing to date a person with a mental disability makes me shallow, but I don’t think I’d be prepared to deal with the problems that that is sure to bring. I enjoy sadness as much as happiness, so I don’t mind mood swings, but not crazy mood swings, and constant ones that make the relationship straining and challenging all the time. I think that my spiritual and political views should be about similar to mine in regards to my potential mates, at least on issues that I actually care about. I don’t think we should have troops in Iraq, if she thinks we should, no big deal.
Back to my stupid system, acquaintances often stay that way for a long time, until I observe them long enough to see that they meet my stupid standards. then I’ll try to be friendly, and once we have an established friendship, we’ll see if we can take it up a notch to romance. I’ve been using this system for so long, and I don’t think it does me any good. I think if I just had a cute girl that had similar interests seem interested in me I’ll dedicate all my interests to her. Until then, my stupid system stands.
As of right now, there is only one female in the system at any point, whether it be acquaintance, friend, or girlfriend. If your reading this and your female, it’s you.